HAPPY HOLIDAYS TO ALL OF OUR OUTDOOR MINDSET FRIENDS AND FAMILY!
This year, don't let the craziness of the holidays overtake your life. With family coming into town, gifts to find, things to do, houses to clean, and meals to be made, let's all not forget to cherish the little moments during the holidays that should be the primary meaning of this season: to give thanks and spend time with those you love, doing the things you love, which hopefully also includes some R&R in the outdoors, as well.
To help put this in perspective, we have a guest blog from one of our fabulous Outdoor Mindset Guides, Natalie. In her story you'll read below, you'll find that amidst recovery from brain surgery (and you think the holidays are stressful!), Natalie found herself in the middle of a lake in her kayak giving thanks for every second out on the water, feeling alive and thankful for her neurological experience and the new path her life was on. Take this inspiring and amazing story with you this holiday season and give thanks for the many blessings you have in your life, and take on a new appreciation for the little moments we should all be thankful for.
Here she goes: The "New Normal for Natalie"
My journey with neurological challenge began in April of 2005 with what the radiologist report said, "accidental find" - a brain tumor in my right anterior temporal lobe, about the size of a golf ball. It was a Friday morning. I was so confused about the information they handed me on the paper that I went home and began to google all the types of tumors and the impacts to the areas of the brain that may be affected by my type of tumor. What I found was pretty upsetting and I didn't have anyone to talk to about it. I didn't want to scare my family and yet, I needed emotional support. Hearing "brain tumor" is a pretty scary thing and the thoughts of "Okay, now what the hell do I do?" are the ones that come first, finding all the information you can and then of course determining the approach with your doctors is the process that isn't so easy to have patience to endure. I wanted answers quickly and found that in some cases, they simply don't have answers to provide. Plus, everyone and every situation is different. I was thankful cancer was ruled out and still, I had a tumor that caused "mass effect" in my head.
My approach was to rule out some of the serious side affects that "may" happen if we waited and watched my tumor for a while. My wonderful team of doctors (really love them) admitted that they really didn't know much about my type of tumor and given, that it represented less than 1% of all intercranial masses, they were very rare. I truly appreciated their direct, honest feedback and the amount of time they spent with me to understand what I was facing.
With MRI's planned every six months (unless new symptoms appeared) - we "watched" my tumor. We watched it slowly grow. I knew it was growing given the increase in pain I had been experiencing from the intercranial pressure, it's similar to the symptoms of meningitis. I could deal with those and often wondered what a "regular" headache would feel like. My pain tolerance began to increase and dealing with the pain became routine. All this while working full time in a management executive role - and being a single mom to 2 wonderful boys.
We watched it... In the mean time - I continued to do the things I loved outdoors; fly fishing, kayaking, hiking, water/snow skiing, boating, Occasionally, I would be debilitated with the pain and be in bed for a day or two but I was able to get back into the swing of things quickly. I rarely missed a day of work and learned to push through the pain or "nut up" as my sons would say. ;-)
In the fall of 2008 I started to feel different. The painful "headaches" were getting more frequent, lasted longer and I became WAY more sensitive to light and noise. I also noticed my sleep was far more interrupted.
On December 19th, 2008 I experienced my first partial complex seizure. Everything changed on that day. I was alone, had just come down the stairs of my home when out of blue, with no warning my head/neck were rigid and my chin was close to my left shoulder, my left arm was rigid and I couldn't move it. I felt my way to the bathroom with my right hand, sat down and waited. The seizure lasted about 60 seconds but seemed much longer. I was confused - I didn't know what to do. In my post seizure funk, I drove to work.
It wasn't until I was at work for a while that I realized what I had just been through. So, I went back home and called my doctors. I was immediately put on Kepra and a few other drugs. The MRI revealed my tumor had grown to about the size of an egg and surgery was scheduled. I asked for the surgery to be in March of 2009 so that I had time to get my "house" in order. The list of risks from the surgery was long. After you read "death" - all the other ones seem like pretty good outcomes.
The seizure clinic revealed I was having partial complex seizures through the night as well. No wonder I couldn't sleep. And, that the cause of the bigger seizure was the growth of the tumor.
My surgeons did an amazing job with the craniotomy. Prior to the surgery they said there was a 50% chance my tumor would come back. After the surgery, they felt it was less than that and had hope I wouldn't need surgical intervention in the future. But again, we're "watching" it.
I had many challenges to face before, during and after the surgery. The most important message I think I can share is to learn to accept there will be a "New Normal" for you when you're faced with a neurological challenge. Folks would ask me if I was 100% - back to normal. I think it took me a while to realize that through such adversity and challenge I could not help but be changed as a person. After my recovery, I was more grateful for everything from the smallest thing like birds visiting my bird feeders to being able to hold my sons. I looked at everything differently. My New Normal was a gift.
Being on the lake that ONE day in my kayak and my belly boat fishing was the first time after my surgery where I didn't worry. I didn't feel like a victim of a brain tumor. I was ALIVE. I savored the warmth of the sun on my face, I prayed to God and gave my thanks for getting me through my challenge, I dropped my hand in the water and appreciated that my hands worked, I cried at the beauty of the calm mountain lake water and each fish I caught (and released) I would kiss them and thank them for biting my fly. I didn't worry about how to tie my flies or how to cast - it came naturally to me and I was grateful for every single second...
That trip fly fishing was by far the biggest catalyst in my healing. After that trip, my short term memory challenges began to subside. I had renewed hope and strength to fight. I was able to get off most of the meds by June and went back to work. I traveled internationally to Sweden in mid June and kayaked there as well.
Being outdoors, in nature - especially around water and then doing the things that I used to love prior to my surgery helped me realize that I am settling into my "New Normal" and it's pretty damn cool to come out the other side of all this as a survivor.
I was introduced to Kyle, from Outdoor Mindset, by my surgeon - we have the same team of doctors. I am honored to be part of the Outdoor Mindset team and cannot express enough gratefulness for a group like this existing. Being a Guide also helps me by being able to "give back" or "pay it forward" - by sharing my experience.
After all is said and done - when you connect with another person facing a neurological challenge, no matter where they are in the process - you GET IT. There are no words that can be expressed to share what that connection is like - it's deep, powerful and a feeling of relief comes over you that you don't have to try and explain what is going on in your head. It's SO helpful to have someone to talk to - someone who has been there. I hope I can be that "someone" for many folks and I would feel blessed to be next to you in your journey.
~Outdoor Mindset Guide, Natalie
I don't think any other words are needed.
Live BIG this Holiday Season and thank you for everything you do,
Wednesday, December 21, 2011
Tuesday, December 13, 2011
Well, they say a thank you is "Better late than Never" and I truly hope you all agree with that statement because we are almost 2 months past our 2nd Annual Chili Cook-off which was on October 23rd at Avery Brewing Company... and we owe everyone who came or participated in any way, shape, or form a BIG THANK YOU, because this event was a huge success for us.
Considering last year we were at a local Boulder park with coolers, an iPod dock, and probably 50 of our closest friends and supporters (and it was STILL awesome), this year's event where
we had around 200 people attend, live music, and AMAZING Avery Beer fresh on tap, we've definitely come a long way!
We also had corn-hole outside and an amazing raffle and silent auction inside with everything from Denver Broncos tickets, Avs tickets, Avery Beer (of course), Moosejaw jackets, Nutcase helmets, Love of Pretty jewelry, SweFish Messages, Kelty Backpacks, a KitchenAide mixer AND coffee pot, and more! The raffle and
silent auction items were amazing!
And THEN there was the Chili: which was DELICIOUS!
Here is where the votes came in for the top 3:
#1: Eric's (or should I say Ember's!) Green Chili
#2: Jill's White Chicken Chili (with a little touch of bacon!)
#3: Kyle's 'Smoked' Texas Chili (his trick was burning the bottom of the pan!)
And, as we promised, here is the recipe for Eric's Award Winning Green Chili:
2011 Turkey Green Chili "Champion" Recipe
2 - Ilbs Ground Turkey
1 - medium onion (chopped)
3 - cloves garlic
1 - green pepper (chopped)
1 - 4 oz can green chilies (diced)
2 - 15 oz cans white beans
1 - 28 oz can medium salsa
1 - jalapeño (diced & seeded)
2 - Tbsp sea-salt (I use closer to 1 - 2 tsp)
2 - Tbsp cumin
1 - tsp coriander
1 - tsp oregano ( I use dried)
2 - cups chicken broth
Sauté garlic & onions with olive oil till "glassy". Add turkey & brown with salt & pepper.
*Crock pot version - Add turkey and other ingredients to crock pot and put on high for 6-8 hrs.
*On the stove version - same as above, except add beans later in cooking process. Cook for 2-3 hrs.
I'm not gonna lie- it was good. Next year we're gonna have to step it up even more. Which means more chili, more beer, more music, more people, and even more love and support (if that's even possible). Again, thank you to everyone who came or supported in every way. All of the Outdoor Mindset crew left feeling so proud and excited to be a part of something that could draw the amazing crowd that attended that event. We had Guides, Travels, Members, Friends, Family, and Supports all in one room and you could feel the strength in our mission to unite and inspire individual people affected by neurological challenges through a common passion for the outdoors the entire night.
And also a BIG thank you to OM Friend Caroline Bridges for being our photographer for the night!